Saturday, December 18, 2004

HeartBrokeN.......T.T

It is really heart breaking when you were being accused of something that you have never done and someone whom you are not just because of your outlook/image or even your lifestyle from the past.

It’s just a stigma that is printed on your forehead from the people around you, by just stereotyping your “whatever they think in their way”.

I can’t open my hearts to show to them..
I don’t have any video records to reply to show…

You don’t stab back or bad mouth about people doesn’t mean they’ll equally treat you in the same way… even they were part of the show or they were the one to coax you away.. in the end, you’re the one who gets shot and they might be somewhere, gloating…well… Just regret of my ineptitude…

Which is right way to live…??
Do something that I want to do and be myself yet do not care about what others say? Just ignore them cause you, yourself know it’s not true..
Or.. try your best to have the best of the best diplomatic image, hiding your true identity, cuz just to show it to the whole world “oh..i’m so angelic”.. and refrain yourself to do just anything because you’re scared to be labeled?

I’m really bemused…
In hindsight, part of it regrets me for being so “I don’t care as long as I’m not” and never look around to actually see what other people are ditching at the back of me..
It even more hurts when you get to know that your loved one has to take those flak..it really brings up the tears……..
The feeling I have now… is what really people called “FRUSTRATION”..

4 comments:

freddie said...

sorry to see what had happened to you. just lay low and try to ignore whatever people said.

hayanna said...

thank u.. T.T

Cute Penguin said...

wat happened hayanna?mind to share wth me?
Hope u'll get rid of the unhappy the soonest..

Anonymous said...

in life, we meet many kind of ppl, good and bad...

i guess it's not easy to handle when ppl badmouth us or having doubt at you...

it's a long way to go, growing up isn't easy

Ju-On Waz Ere